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1.
Cut Out 03:45
Clipped from a magazine The article read like a movie screen It has pictures I can read With words to disbelieve Distracting from what might be real Photo shop or photo still Looks all so real until You look too closely Then you see emotions missing Looks all so real until You look too closely You looked too closely Cut from the cloth again The idea behind me is wearing thin This machine has sucked me in My own desire to win Was beyond my comprehension Always feel I don’t belong What makes a weak man strong? The strength of “His” conviction? Cause I was born with all that missing But now I see what’s real in me What is fake and part machine I don’t need to believe In any one other than me Disappearing quietly Without you noticing There is no trace of me Because I was never real I was never real Because I was never real I was never real I was never real
2.
I went walking by the ocean I suppose that I was looking for an answer or a notion But in my head all this commotion coming from my loose emotions Doing no good for you Tried to say I tried to stay Tried to say what I wanted to say to you I went out walking just supposing that I’ve faked my life But I have things that I have set in motion But in my head it’s so atrocious and at times becomes ferocious It does no good for you I wanna breathe and be set free to become the man That I’m supposed to be I could be good for you What I wanted to say You wouldn’t hear anyway It’s like a yell into space Or like I’m running in place This distance is too great This distance is too great It’s too great for me What I wanted to say You wouldn’t hear anyway Just like a punch in the face Become a public disgrace This distance is too great This distance is too great What I wanted to say You have been causing me pain Repeat again and again Just like I’m running in place This distance is too great This distance is too great It’s too great for me What I wanted to say You seem to hear in delay It’s like a yell into space Or falling flat on your face This distance is too great This distance is too great It’s too great for me
3.
Autopilot 07:22
The cracks in the story you told Filling the timeline holes Where was your control? I’m smashing with both hands Whatever I can grasp, whatever I can hold on to But we have made these plans and we must see them to the end Real enough to hold on to Autopilot kicking in I’m disappearing Autopilot kicking in I’m disappearing Collecting grains of sand and counting time in hand Whatever I can hold on to Will the shadows all wash off? Have I ever been this lost? What’s real enough to hold on to? Autopilot kicking in I’m disappearing Autopilot kicking in I’m disappearing Autopilot kicking in I’m disappearing Autopilot kicking in I’m disappearing This consciousness is faked and none of us awake Whatever can I hold on to? And awareness second best leaves us all to second guess Whatever we can hold on to The cracks in the story you told Filling the timeline holes Where was your control? Where was your control? Where was your control? Autopilot kicking in I’m disappearing Autopilot kicking in I’m disappearing Autopilot kicking in I’m disappearing Autopilot kicking in I’m disappearing Autopilot kicking in I’m disappearing Autopilot kicking in I’m disappearing I’m smashing with both hands I’m burning down our plans There’s nothing left to hold on to I’m smashing with both hands I’m burning down our plans There’s nothing left to hold on to
4.
This is my machine, ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah…… This is my machine, ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah…… Unbreakable, I can’t be I’m losing control within me I’m cracking the whip on another scream I’m losing the grip on my machine This is my machine This is my machine, ah-ah, oh……. Incredible skillset, I haven’t even demonstrated yet I’m losing the grip on my machine And I can’t remember anything This is my machine This is my machine
5.
Red 03:05
Nothing makes sense but the violence Not the never ending need to be settin’ the trend Or the underlying greed that’s a means to an end That we need to exploit with the will to pretend Once again I find myself with a paper and pen Writing down every single little thought in my head Instead of all the things that I never have said My emotions are gone and my feelings are dead As I pull around my damn car up to a red The balls of my feet become the heaviest lead My eyeballs are open at the back of my head And the choices I make, I have the best of intent But intent's a simple something that could find you dead Underground sounds bounce from the words that you said Up ahead you and I, I think are reaching the end And I miss my competition just as much as my friends Nothing for sure but the commerce Press conferences and pressed shirts We got confidence insurance And we got good old fashioned insolence Tried to communicate the difference An equation greater than the sum of us The sum of our parts from the head to the heart You only understand violence Nothing makes sense but the violence Not the never ending need to be settin’ the trend Or the underlying greed that’s a means to an end That we need to exploit with the will to pretend Once again I find myself with a paper and pen Writing down every single little thought in my head Instead of all the things that I never have said My emotions are gone and my feelings are dead As I pull around my damn car up to a red The balls of my feet become the heaviest lead My eyeballs are open at the back of my head And the choices I make, I have the best of intent But intent a simple something that could find you dead Underground sounds bounce from the words that you said Up ahead you and I, I think are reaching the end And I miss my competition just as much as my friends Nothing for sure but the commerce Press conferences and pressed shirts We confidence insurance And we got good old fashioned insolence Tried to communicate the difference An equation greater than the sum of us The sum of our parts from the head to the heart You only understand violence
6.
I turned the light out I closed the window Right before I left the room I felt the chill of you run through my bones But I’ve never been more alone Oh-oh, oh-oh I read the note you left You always felt like second best I always felt that you Were the arms that I could run to and call home Now I’ve never been more alone Oh-oh, oh-oh There is that spot that you and I were both connected to The diner on first ave When I discovered the only dream I never had I had to get you alone Oh-oh, oh-oh That spot is hollow now I wish that it made sense somehow I always thought that you Were the piece of the puzzle of my life I had glued I’ve never been so alone Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh I always thought that you Were the piece of the puzzle of my life I had glued I’ve never been so alone Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
7.
8.
Mind Field 03:46
Disaster Hearing the news coming through on the phone I was shattered When all I heard was the dial tone Am I losing my mind Or were you there all the time? I’ve got silence on the line But I swear I can hear you whisper…. Your voice faintly appears Through a long pause finally broken Your voice is clear In my head residence is chosen Am I losing my grip? Am I beginning to slip? I’ve had enough of this trip And the things I hear you whisper….. When it’s all said and done I feel the walls are closing in When it’s all said and done I feel the walls are closing in When it’s all said and done I feel the walls are closing in When it’s all said and done It’s just my head I’m living in Am I losing my mind Or somehow hours in time? I’m feeling physically fine But you know there’s something wrong with me… I’m trapped here And I am the only one who knows This past year Has dissolved into the dial tone Am I losing my mind Or just the will to survive? I’m crossing over a line I’ll be forever looking back at…..
9.
Micro Acid 04:27
I looked in the mirror, what did I see? The tiniest part of me dying I looked in the mirror, so desperate to see And to not let slip away All the good parts of me I looked in the mirror, and I don’t dare blink The tiniest part of me’s dying I looked in the mirror, trying to help me I can never forget what it taught me I will never forget what it taught me I will never forget what it taught me I looked in the mirror, and what did I see? Acid manifested apologies I looked in the mirror, with a hand on the pain I hope I will see you again I looked in the mirror, to say my goodbyes But I’ll never forget all the truth in my eyes
10.
Over I Go 01:35

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released January 2, 2013

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